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I just saw You Got Served. It aint bad at all since all the guys there are blackalicious. But I fink it should be entitled "B2k the Movie". The guy who played as Eljon (I think he's in B2k, too) is really cute. In the vid of Badaboom, he's there but his hat is real low so I cant see much of his face. But still, Fabolous is a lot cuter. Omarion looks hot, too but in his scene talking to Eljohn while playing basketball right after their show is crap. His lines about reaching his dreams sounds loserish.

Im talking to Sars atm. I missed her.

This is a photo twas taken in 1987. That's me beside the girl wearing yellow head band. That boy at the back of the electric fan, he's beside the boy with red collar was my grade school crush. His name is Jeremy x_x;; Just click the image for larger view:

At 11:30AM today my college bestfriend, her name is Meann died. In my previous post I was talking about someone who had a nervous breakdown and that was her. Until now I still cant believe she went crazy and now when I texted her sister, she told me she's dead. Everything went too fast. The last time I saw her was graduation day. We were together and things were good at that time. Then I moved here in Bicol and she still text me then. She told me she missed me and stuffs. I dont know what may lead to her breakdown. Karen always beg me to go back to Manila and visit her but I couldnt and I thought Meann will get better. I wasnt expecting this to happen. Her wake will be in Nueva Ecija and I dunno if I can go there. Its not possible atm and Karen is playing guilt trip on me I did not go because Meann always think of me as her bestfriend. Im broke!!! I was the first to know in our class. Karen was all like crying and telling me why I never told her because it was Tin who texted her about it. She was actually the first one I tried calling but her phone was off then next was Michelle but she wasnt picking up so I called Tin and told her. I dont know right now. Meann is always the funny and nice one. She always try to make friends with everyone and she understand my mood swings and now she's gone. I guess people should always appreciate those persons around them because life is too short, things change every second... Sometimes I feel like Im "malas" to those people because its those people close to me who were dying; first my father, then my grandfather and now Meann. All these happened in 9 months and now it sounds like a horror something movie *sigh*. I had this dream last night that it was my Gram who died in the hospital and I told her she's lying she was okay because it seemed were just talking to her spirit and then she admitted she died in the hospital. It's a weird dream but my dreams always have connection with what's going to happen. It isnt my Gram who was going to die in the hospital but someone close to me. Like the night before I lost my chicken, I dreamed of chickens.

I hope Meann is happy wherever she at right now and she will definitely be missed <3

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Im going to Nueva Ecija on Saturday.
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I got left behind by the bus. LMAO. Ugh! why do I feel so disoriented today? I guess I'll just leave tomorrow. My aunt and mom doesnt want me to go but if I didnt then it's something I'll feel bad about the rest of my life *sigh*

Karen sent me a text message asking me if Im experiencing weird things since Meann just died. She's an idiot. I thought Born Again Christians doesnt believe in ghosts??

Im opening Meann's email atm and looking for stuffs like what might caused her breakdown. I feel like Im stalking or something x_X;;

I read somewhere:

My mom always say to me, "you will never amount to anything because you procastrinate", I said, "you just wait".

I can so relate to that.

Yes Slipknot's right that People=Shit and so is me =/

Internet is a haven for different kind of fucktards: those people with weird nicks like suck_me_because_iam_english and when they IM you you'd really want to reply "suck your own, bitch!"; then there are the exhibitionists on webcam and etc. One of these days Im gonna stop getting online and the reason why I only get on is to talk to online friends I known for like 6 years.

Thanks Vanya ^-^

Your parents doesnt buy you toys unless its your birthday or its Christmas. While the rich kids stay at home playing with their Barbie's and video games you play with other kids in the hood under the sun. Your toys are bottle caps and rubber bands. You cant afford to buy yourself a water gun so you make "paltok", some sort of a toy made of bamboo and you stuff its hole with a wet paper and you shoot other kids with it. Wetting the paper with your piss will make it funnier to shoot at other kids. You dont own a bandwagon, nobody does, so you and the other kids use coconut palms. Someone will sit on the leaves as someone pull him downhill. Animals are your best toys like the earthworms you put inside the Coke bottle, the frogs, small fishes, small jellyfish, ants, snails, tadpoles, white rats, beetles and spiders. For me, spiders are the best because they always put up a good fight with each other.

So that's how was my childhood like =/

Btw, new layout finally. Im not into fashion or anything associated with it but I saw Yumi Katsura's Autumn Collection in Paris on FTV Channel. Her design is really eccentric and captivating.

Ang hirap ni Torp paputiin XD;;

How come we dont even talk no more
And you dont even call no more
We dont barely keep in touch at all
And I dont even feel the same love when we hug no more
And I heard it through the grape vine we even beefin now
After all the years we been down
Aint no way no how, this bullshit can be true
We family and aint a damn thing changed, unless it's you

He hates me now cause I trash talked his gf. I said she's "mahilig sa titi" (fond of penis). I dont like that girl even before he got her and I feel sorry for him because he could've get a decent girl but instead he's wasting his time on that hoe. Sylvia is a lot better than his gf and let's just see what's gonna happen next. But then I dont care anymore.

Aliza and Marlon are going out now. Me and the others we like "WTF?!". I just wish that things work out between them because I know Marlon and he's a good guy. Glenn got a new gf and he's gonna get mad at me if he found out I say this but he sure only wants to get laid.

I missed my chicken and I might buy a new one today. I'll check the pet shop if they still got chickens there. It's so tough when your pet is edible because everyone wants her dead u_u;;

Blah, I hate the model in my layout. I dont like models >_>;; Wth was I thinking?? Her kimono and mask rocks but she's too skinny .___.

OMG!!!!!!!! I bought two chickens today. I cant be any happier :3 They're so small and cute. They actually look like midget chickens. Because me and my mom had a fight she'd been giving me cold shoulders and she doesnt talk to me which I think is good. I have the chickens running around the house and shitting on the floor and she's not complaining. Nyahaha!!

It's Paulinna's birthday and she's 10 today.

Next week I'll take pics of my chickens so you all will see how they look :3 I have one ordinary chicken and three bantams. I dunno if they are Serama bantam or Kapan or whatever bantam they are but they're small and weigh like only 370 grams. One of them (Chico) has cold and fowl pox u__u;; He should get well because Im expecting that after 30 days he will be a beautiful mottled cockerel. The problem is, I dunno how I will make them pose for pics ;x

Some army dude IM me in ym. I put in my info that I wanna be a truck driver in Iraq as a joke then he said that I cant be a truck driver in Iraq because Philippines pulled out its troops in Iraq. Gosh, I wasnt even serious when I typed that info¬_¬

tom_seto2000: it's a religious war.. unfortunately but true.. let me tell you this also.. that filipino truck driver.. he was a very very brave man.. he went over there for his family.. i'm glad he's okay.. i just wished it would not be such a high cost.
aznrox8: your president put million lives at risk including yours
tom_seto2000: but you know what?? you filipinos have always enjoyed liberal freedoms because of our interconnected histories this past centuries.. americans have NEVER turned it's back on your country.. now.. you did that to us.. th'ats pathetic..
aznrox8: that's funny
aznrox8: we dont owe you americans anything
tom_seto2000: right or wrong.. he was my commander in chief.. any soldier of any country understands that.. policies be damned
tom_seto2000: then stay out of the country then.. so quick to take what we offer.. yet give nothing back
tom_seto2000: stay on your island.. deal with your pirates that kidnap your own people every day..
aznrox8: you know i grew up not being fond of the american government, after the second world war our country was the 2nd most destructed country. thanks to america who "bought" our "own land" from spain and installed their bases here.
aznrox8: its safer here than where you at
aznrox8: isnt it pathetic that america's losing its allies now?

No offense to Americans who are reading my tabulas. Im not a racist or anything like that. The guy was talking about "interconnected histories" of US and the Philippines. All I can say is: Filipinos resisted Americans when they came here so Americans was never welcomed. Americans massacred hundred thousands Filipinos during their occupation that's whay there is Balangiga Massacre And when Americans pulled out its base here they left barrels of toxic waste. So how will be very happy about the "US-Phils interconnected histories"?

This is what Jason said, he's insane:
aznrox8: some crazy ass army boy msged me in ym about philippines pulling out its troops in iraq
godsburden: lol
godsburden: PUSSY PHILIPINOS
godsburden: FILIPINOS
godsburden: yeah
godsburden: oooo
godsburden: our troop was kidnapped
godsburden: ooooo it's not like we have more than 30 times that many soldiers there
aznrox8: arroyo just stopped kissing bush ass?
aznrox8: im so happy!!!
godsburden: no no
godsburden: they're PUSSIES
aznrox8: LOL
godsburden: they cry OMG NO A SOLDIER IS GONNA BE DECAPITATED
godsburden: OH WOE IS US AND OUR SEXY BIG NOSES

I have nothing against the American troops but I do hate Bush.

I hate the keyboard on this computer!!! jklsjoewiroweuri jhksjkdfs klskflds owojeowewRErwe!! That means fuck the keyboard -_-